A warning, this will have some very very sensitive material so if you can't handle it please don't read on. I don't really think this is for advice, I don't know if anyone can give me in this situation, it's more or less getting a huge load of my stress with a major curve ball in my life. Getting it out, even anonymously on the internet will help a lot get rid of some weight and help me think over things.
Basically this all goes back to childhood issues, when I was a kid I was wronged in a bad way by my own brother. I suspect another relative put him up to it, said relative has always been up to no good and my brother is mental challenged enough to not know right from wrong at that age. I just kept the weight inside for all my life basically and let it out to a friend recently, it just all got to be too much and I started having really bad dreams. It helps to get it out and I confronted him about it once when he visited as he no longer lives here. Sadly things came up in his life and he is thinking of moving back in here, and his bedroom is next to mine. Now I see myself as a survivor and not a victim but I don't think I can deal with that right now. What I need to do is somehow tell my parents. they were the ones who made sure it never happened again, but they don't know of the dreams I've been having recently or how angry I am with my brother, I mean I love him at all but hate him at the same time and I am not ready for him to be here, I don't want him to be here at all really. I just gotta find some way to bring up how I feel with my parents and hope and pray that he does not move back in here and they don't let him. I don't' want him out on the street my grandparents can take him in or something I just don't want him here.
